BIRTHING STELLA + fasting

so today i'm almost done completing my "fasting" day...

I have a few more things to do...

...like complete (this day and yesterday's day) in my awesome birthday gift [http://search.barnesandnoble.com/Jesus/Beth-Moore/e/9780805446456]
(thanks GLENN)
...read & pray for another hour or so after i get off this blog...
I'm kinda new & not sure of the "correct way" or if there is even a correct way..but im committing and doing what i gather. Fasting is a spiritual discipline that allows us to hear the voice of God better. Its a time where spiritual nourishment replaces physical nourishment.

I didnt eat but i did drink. :/

haha I even went to dinner with two friends, and it was his "birthday" dinner/eat out celebrationish thing... i drank my tea & conversed.
It wasnt that hard... but those charbroiled oysters did look tempting to try for the first time. LOL

I've fasted from food before, but this time i had a "focus meditation" ...
The focus of this day was to be God's Word. Praying that our actions, decision and thoughts are guided by His WORD.
I prayed and thanked him for this to happen in my life throughout the day.. also with just praying/thanking like normal.
:) I could/should have done better by having more of "ME" time... where i could concentrate & speak more. But that'll be in a few minutes.

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I don't know how anyone who has ever experienced or seen live child birth can't BELIEVE in GOD.

LIFE is a TRUE MIRACLE

seriously, it is just amazing & miraculous how it happens. I've seen live birth about 6 or so times, 2 of my sisters (4) and 2 complete strangers when I worked in the hospital.
Last night... I was able to be apart of one of my best friend's HOME/WATER BIRTH. And photograph it.
She was so amazing & strong and the whole home thing is so admirable. She prepared herself well and she works in that field so she knows whats going on... but its funny how knowing things & having to actually apply & perform comes into play when its such a huge thing like giving birth... you're kinda all up in the pain & moment. She did very well & made it look easy even l though it wasn't.

It was such a beautiful experience... in my opinion.

Unfortunetly, when the baby came; she was carrying Niagra Falls too (hehe) so I didnt get to photograph the whole sequenial exiting of the womb... being my left hand was helping her hold her leg and then i grabbed towels with my trigger hand... and within those quickest 3 seconds, after throwing the towels i had less than a second to recompose myself and refocus my tear out my eye ...then was able to start snapping while the baby was rushed to her mother's arms.

Its really breathtaking when you're able to hear the first glimpse of life. The baby was laying on her mother, quiet... breathing... and now about 10 seconds after exiting the womb, the ruffle of hands and the suction of "baby glob"... and the most beautiful burst of a quiet cry.

Goodness that pulls on my heart strings & reality of God all comes rushing in with those 8 seconds of silence.
I thanked God the moment Stella arrived, [for the safety of my friend/baby & the whole experience I was able to have with them] & felt fully confirmed He was watching over them as I see the baby in the arms of my dear friend & hearing the faint cry of newborn life.
A bundle of love delivered right into your life. A miracle...thats what occured. God's greatest work... I doubt I'm wrong... but thats just my perspective of January 15th at 11:18pm - Miss Stella Marie




I'm going to try my best to always remember this perspective, especially on the day I have my first child.

On another note... I love the innocence of a child. Nora's 2 year old comprehension of this event going on was so hilarious & awesome! Kids are great...
When her mother laid on the bed in the photo above... "MOMMA YOU HURT?" she asked.
The birthing "mess" had made a mess... when seeing the mess; her response to this... "UH, WHO MADE THIS MESS??" then afterwhile... holding her little sister, she says " BABY STELLA HAS HAIR LIKE NORA..." and proceeds to open the blankie.. " AND TEETAWS LIKE NORA..." opening it more... "WHAT'S THAT?" (abilical cord attatched ) ...how precious.
She is so 2 going on 20. This ought to be interesting to hear/experience about her growing ups with a sibling. Its been a while since i've been around todler kids.

my random pick of my bread of life scripture for today...
"Therefore I say unto you, What things soever ye desire, when ye pray, believe that ye receive them, and ye shall have them.: Mark 11:24 KJV
MAN I LOVE THIS ONE! AND i know in my heart this is confirmation of my "fasting" time with God I'm going end my day with now will be very very very well heard. its always the little things, like this 2.5 inch by 1 inch Bread of Life scripture card that God will talk to me, cuz I'm listening. Thank You Lord for everything... xo