It has been some weeks and days and tests and challenges and blessings... and a LOT OF WORK for me lately :) ...and I can clearly see its all leading me and God's positioning me for my next level.... below is his confirmation to me.

Things don't stay the same when you work hard and you pray! <3>

Zack Arias is an extremely talented person. Not only is he an amazing Photographer (his chosen profession), he is a mentor, leader and part time video producer (+).

Below are three Links. Watch/Read them in order. The first link displays his creative ability to turn his own feelings into a wonderful video called “Transform”...

•••This video is applicable to any one who ever questions what they do.

Transform – http://www.zarias.com/?p=284

I didn't post on that one...

•••The second is a fine example of how Zack relates to his readers and cares about how he processes and interacts with his audience (which is no small feat – very few blogs feel intimate these days).

How Many Of You Are Standing On The Dock? – http://www.zarias.com/?p=388#

MY POST:

I’m currently on the dock with similar thoughts of B. @ times, but when they come, I work diligently to rid them out my head as soon as I can so I can continue preparing myself for “the push off”.

I want to “push off”, I will (in yrs time) yet I don’t want to drown.
I know that only pushing off is the way but I’m waiting for the time when I can educate myself enough to eliminate most failures… yet knowing to not wait too long or that time will pass me by.

Like many things in life, ATTITUDE DETERMINES YOUR ALTITUDE.
…and EXCUSES are reasons to keep doing whatever it is you’re doing. (staying comfortable)

I have a 5 day/wk 40hr job but I get to wet my feet in my photography on weekends until I take that chance and sail away on that journey.

I try to not focus on the “dead bodies” that will come up along the way because that steers me off my course of improving & getting what I desire/need accomplished to put myself in the position for success & my dream fulfillment.
My success /dream is doing what I love, being able to pay my bills, traveling, helping others & capturing / showing love & life in my photography.

Situations in life can be overwhelming but you have to continue to work your faith & believe(dream).

While I’m standing on the dock, trying to always look up, I rely/trust in God that He is guiding my paths & I stay thankful embracing the opportunities given to me to improve & learn & enhance my craft of photography(art).

You DO what you can, & God will do what you can not!
(this is the advice I’m taking myself)

(abilities/reality)-what you can do
(faith/favor/grace/trust)- in/of God

Keep your head up B, just take some time to figure whats best for you, because you have to live with your decisions.
Find what you need to keep you free & not feeling in bondage comparing yourself to others.
Those other successful stories are for encouragement, showing you that you can do it too!!
So take that from those “stories” not the… ” i can never do what others did/do”, and if you focus on that negative aspect, how can you focus on what you need for you?

take care & stay encouraged

•••Third is the latest video he has shared of an experience of interacting with a salesman at his door and how it relates to the prior links.

Dope, Soap, & Hope :: Teachers Are Everywhere. – http://www.zarias.com/?p=440

MY POST:

THANK YOU GOD.

Truth be told, that sums up any and all of the things I could say. (but I’ll like to share my heart on this topic)

I just have to give God some praise first because HE ALREADY KNEW & ALREADY HAD what we needed.
BUT He had to work on HIS TIMING, not ours… to show how powerful & how only HE could have known & made things work the way things are falling… seriously, I really doubt anyone knew how you were feeling ZACK until you shared it, then that sparking reactions & thoughts & the email B sent to share… to get to where we are now of Derek sharing… & all of us sharing… and none of you know us… but we are all apart of the same God wanting to share HIS love on us.

The things Derek said was so true, he has got a great bit figured out.. I could see the God in him shining so brightly…

Anything in life we go through is NEVER FOR US, it is always for someone else… thats how God created us to work. But being human, we get so wrapped up in ourselves & our lil worlds.
We’re His children & we are to love & help each other.
I believe those that understand that will just continue to go & grow… we’ll be challenged & tested & stretched & hurt… but the blessings always out shine & purposes fulfilled. (ex.God getting us to where He needs us to be.)

It is so important we have the right attitude… and we walk in LOVE, removing (our)SELF from our worldy ways daily (which is never easy).

I truly believe in things happening for reasons. PURPOSE.

MY mother pasted away 4 years ago. I knew I wasn’t able to go on without help, without a CLOSER relationship to GOD/JESUS, He knew I had to position myself for helping my family & friends to be encouraged & to overcome situations in life. And while establishing this closer/personal relationship I know I have to live my life as an example to others because GOD KNOWS MY HEART, but PEOPLE KNOW MY ACTIONS.

I do it to be obedient, honestly I’m not tooting my horn. (obeying is what pleases God) Yet I can selfishly say, God always comes through, helps, & blesses me & I love love His blessings. LOL like this discussion is a blessing to me.

Since I have changed my lifestyle to putting GOD first & removing SELF… (its a daily challenge as U know)finding purpose & right perceptions /attitudes, always learning, remaining kind to others, & continuing to grow-(list goes on) -I have seen so much, God really has open my eyes, and this is such a huge CONFIRMATION for me(again) for so many things in my life.

Some people might say(argue), “no its YOU not God… its you, you’re talented, you’re skilled, you’re this & that…” but no- I choose to do what I do & love God & he helps me along, & i have to trust HIM as he guides me & creates things for me. Thats what I believe, thats what I can see for my life. Cuz it ain’t me.. who am I? yanno…

TO ZACK (& Meg)
God knew what you were going through, He knows whats going to come about… He knew He had to position Zack where he is.. HE knew he could use Zack & bless ya’ll in your life, HE knew you(zack) were going to write this, God knew you had that exposure to many, HE KNOWS, and I thank HIM for being able to use you to reach people… help people…
remember that… its not us, its the GOD IN US. <3

**(get is straight people… Zack’s choosing to let God work in his life not Zack/B/Derek being so great & so this & that ) –no offense Zack, but its easy to idolize someone(s)& be blinded. [just keeping it real sir] **

Zack/Meg I thank God for ya’ll having the heart you have…for being who ya’ll are, for all the sacrifices & struggles, for setting up a platform for those that are in need… and helping/showing others.. and being GIVING people. I know this all will lead you to the next level & all the challenges you face position you for the great things God will offer back to ya’ll.

I pray this [topic] helps those to decide how they will react to situations in their lives more positively, not focusing on negativeness & SELF and THE PAST… learning to give & love more to others & changing attitudes for betterment.

Because we can’t control what happens in our lives, we can only control how we react to them.

People, when you get in that negative state of mind… stop yourself & tell the devil to GO TO HELL… cuz if the devil can remind you of your PAST (fears/failures) YOU CAN REMIND HIM OF HIS FUTURE!

/end church
lol …i apologize, its one of the best real truths I heard my pastor say that I got to echo!

Much love to everyone!

I've got a high demand on my photography so thats been keeping me busy.
In June I got to accomplish some goals - I traveled to the WEST COAST (usa) and touched the PACIFIC OCEAN!
I'll have to blog about that later... back to work on my website!!
xo

Principles for Living a Balanced Life

Sometimes the hardest part of trying to change old habits is just getting started!

1. Make a list of the things where you spend most of your time and money.
Ask yourself; Why are you doing the things you are doing?

2. Identify your priorities.
Decide what things are most important to you. Set your schedule around those priorities. Don’t allow yourself to be distracted by things that are less important. Stay Focused!

3. Make a commitment to your health.
Take time to rest and reenergize.

4. Focus on building relationships and making memories.
Give your family and friends the time they deserve.

5. Spend time with God every day.
Pray and read your Bible. If this is new for you, just start with 10-15 minutes each day.

6. Get involved with other believers.
Attend a Bible believing church in your area and support that church with your faithful attendance, tithing and service to others.
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ASK YOURSELF THESE QUESTIONS:

What things do I spend most of my time doing?
What priorities do I want in my life to be?
What are the things in life that I value most?
How many of my priorities are being accomplished by my current schedule as I listed (Q#1)?
What changes need to be made based on the difference between my current schedule and my priorities?

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A prayer for a balanced Lifestyle:
Dear God,
I know that You have created me with a purpose and plan. I know it is Your desire that I too have a life filled with joy, purpose and victory. Please help me today to fulfill the destiny You have planned for my life. I know that in order to do this, I must live a life obedient to Your Word, and a life of balance, with my priorities in the proper place and my heart focused on You.

Dear Lord, help me to attain that balance in all areas of my life. Examine my heart, and show me those places where I may be out of balance. Help me to focus on the things that are most important, and keep me from being distracted by the things that would steal my time and attention. Protect me from those things that try to keep me from reaching my goals and achieving the dreams that you have put in my heart.

And most of all, dear God, remind me daily that You have called me to be fruitful, not just busy. Give me the wisdom and strength to produce in abundance that which is most important and constructive in my life and the lives of those around me. Thank you for your constant presence and for helping me to grow and increase in every area of my life. In Jesus' name. Amen.

TESTS OF FRIENDSHIPS

First off.... being CHRISTIAN is not being religious. Being CHRISTIAN is living like Christ ( or being Christ-like aka loving).

I been having these tests this year... along with feelings of disappointments & sadness... pertaining with my friends.

Mostly cuz they've not being good friends in my eyes (how dare i be so judgmental of them i know... ) & the lack of hanging out with certain ones...

and i came to the revelation... that the way some of my friends have been not being so involved with me is not cuz of me, but its cuz of whose i am...
I'm not the same as I use to be. I've chosen to live my life on bettering myself & other people. Trying to follow Christ, and not so much of the world. Its a daily battle, everyone knows.

I choose to be positive & share Godly wisdom, etc... I try not cuss much..., be encouraging, give, be selfless, etc.
I am trying to change me for the better cuz I know that things that happen, its not for me - its for someone else.
Another thing is I don't go party like i use to, I mean, I just choose not to spend most of my time in a bar / club or going get drunk, etc every weekend... (plus its OLD) ...so those party friends (only a tiny few ) don't invite me to go party as much & uninvolve me @ times. And thats ok.

BUT

i know its not cuz of me, even though i thought @ first thats what it was... and got upset a little. (defeated devil trying to pull me back into that lifestyle & make me sad)

but i figured out some things , and one is, its them not wanting to change / grow up / better themselves... they rather stick to living a carefree, party lifestyle... and thats fine too. Its their lives.. they live it. I use to go to clubs too & dance...
But i guess they can see the change in me ( like trying to better / not partying on weekends in a sense ).. yanno like why ask someone who doesnt do drugs to come over & do drugs? yanno what i mean?

Im not downing them, i use to live it too, im just saying there comes a time, when you gotta get priorities in line, maybe even growing up a little...

We're all at different levels as we live our lives...i still love them & am loving to them & there for them as I've always been... thats not changing unless they become unhealthy in my life.

And i can sit back knowing the truth... and just be in comfort & advise them when they need it....cuz those friends come when they want.
Yet they got all this drama all the time & they wonder why things are how they are... & why stuff is (crappy)... They don't see that they choose to ignore some things & don't want to take responsibility for how they are living... and CHOOSE to NOT change out of the lifestyles.
So its just the same cycle over and over for them...

The main thing thats changed is i dont feel bad about them not hanging out with me as much anymore cuz i KNOW its not me...
I know its just a test, and a statement of my integrity & character to love them and be their friend even when they might be scared or uncomfortable being mine....
SO, I'll just remain loving them, communicating with them, supporting them, being there for them & being a friend when they need me. :)
afterall, thats what true friends do...

<3

BUSY + MY THOUGHTS

I have been really busy with my photography. God really has been giving me so many opportunities! I know I have to use the talent He gives me... so thats what im doing! ANd man O man am I busy busy!!! thank ya Lord.

SO i went into a forum... and on a topic I commented.
Q: If God is All-knowing, then you have no freewill. True or False
the author of the posed question said also... "Maybe it is fueled by a poor understanding of God and life. "

I don't believe we are suppose to "understand" God ( I don't think its humanly possible) but only to LOVE/BELIEVE/WORSHIP/CHOOSE/OBEY HIM.

Thats kinda the point as to why theres a BIBLE...its from God, written by man, for US to help/guide US. Oh and before you ? that, all scripture was written from/influenced the spirit of God... I had ?ed about the bible before ( if the bible was written by man, how is it the TRUTH other than its says IN the bible "it is TRUTH" - i learned.)

Also, as you grow and study and learn more through reading the bible/books/teachings and growing in a real relationship with God, you will form some sense of understanding.

God also becomes more real to you. Because the biggest thing with people believing IN God...is the fact they can't SEE him ( like we see things on earth)... but you have to remember God doesn't work the way we do on earth. On earth, you have to SEE things to BELIEVE... with GOD, YOU HAVE TO BELIEVE THINGS IN ORDER TO SEE.

This is a such a touchy subject b/c honestly no one knows everything & there are so many people and we are all on different levels with God & our knowledge / understandings, experiences etc. Plus not to mention the way words are diluted through time & the way religion has also become somewhat diluted. Its well though. The Bible is like an instruction manual, its written back then but its for our RIGHT NOW, if we read, get knowledge and most importantly APPLY things taught in the Bible, it helps us to be "CHRISTian" like and live righteous.

I do see God's purpose in my life or how you could say, "God is omnipotent, already knows what I'ma do / all knowing God" or whatever ya'll overly stressing & dissecting. (but i know everyone wants to understand... i got that bug too)

Yet you have to be careful when reading the Bible, it can be tricky & yet its the most amazing book to me, being that you can read something one day & read it the next & you can get something from it totally different.

Its complicated, thats why it takes a while to study it & why there are SO MANY differnet versions & all kinda translations & yadda yadda... Like, just taking one verse & trying to make it mean something to where it can be sugarcoated/ interpreted/ twisted for your personal advantage(s)... or reading too much into or using one verse from the WHOLE point can totally mess up the purpose of that passage /point.

Things on earth are not like things in heaven. HUMANS aren't like GOD.

Its good to question things, thats how we learn & grown & get our beliefs and just experience life/people. I know God has given us CHOICE, because he LOVES US. and its UNCONDITIONAL LOVE. I know God is Love. God is our Father. God is our creator. He gives us the choice to LOVE Him, accept, seek, worship, praise, believe in Him, sin, rebuke, curse, deny ...Him.

I know He gave us his son JESUS to take our sins & give us eternal life through grace... in the OT(moses) they were taught you had to work for salvation, but (NT) God gave us Jesus (which we are saved by His grace & mercy). If we believe in HIS SON, JESUS & make him our Lord & Savior.. then we are saved.

A lot of peopel don't believe theres a heaven or a hell. I know there is a heaven where God resides, and theres 5 levels of Hell.

If you believe in Christ, when you die, your soul goes immediately in the presence of God (where there can be NO SIN) and the flesh body dies... we get glorified bodies. :D when JUDGEMENT comes, cuz it will...we are judged for our WORKS not our SINS... but its kinda confusing b/c sometimes our WORKS are our sins. I've learned that after studying most of the massiveness of Revelations (about a year+ in Bible Study) that when armaggedon finishes heaven will come down to earth, [another point why it happens b/c God has to remove all sin & purify the earth before the New Jeruselum is built]... and its going to be similar to how earth is... our eternal life... & our judgement from God is kinda like a reward system.

I think you might can understand on that level... think of it as a CAREER status... the better works you do in this life on earth (more people you love/ christ like lifestyle) the better "career" / rewards you will have... so kinda simple explanation... You have 10 good works, well you get to be a secretary, but if you had 1,000 good works, then you get to be the BOSS.

Faith wihtout good works is dead. Pretty much meaning... if you don't have good works, then you don't show the world your faith. Yes GOD KNOWS YOUR HEART, but PEOPLE KNOW YOUR ACTIONS.

There is just SO MUCH information... it can get overwhelming to some.

I also believe there is suppose to be a healthy amount of fear of God. My pastor says, "Just because you give your life to Jesus(make him your savior) doesn't mean you get more of Him, it just means he gets more of You."

And if we didn't have free will(freedom to choose) then I couldn't be having this forum conversation with you cuz I wanna.

I'm not debating free will... just stating my opinion(s). I know God knows everything & sees everything... I know he gives us a choice & he wont override our wants. He loves us enough to give that to us & is delighted & blesses us even more so when we CHOOSE to do good & obey HIM! But the devill can bless you too.. and good things happen to bad people same as bad things happen to GOOD people. JUST KNOW ITS NOT FOR US, its for someone else why things happen to us. We are such a selfish people. But its well & I'll be the first to admit I'm selfish at times. ;)

...but thats why HE is God. I would not want his job eeeeeeevvvveeeeerrrrrrr... I would have done destroyed a lot of people LOL - BUT IM HUMAN..... and hes GOD! opk u got that point. ;)

THIS IS STRICTLY MY BELIEFS & THOUGHTS on the question you asked & just what I free willed felt like typing to you. ... A LOT of times, what you believe is your TRUTH.

What do you think is more important? Understanding GOD or KNOWING GOD?

I would have to say KNOWING GOD is more important to me than trying to understand something I can not... even if I spent my whole life doing JUST that.

LOVE YOU ALL

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So the scripture i just pulled right now is...

"Don't be afraid, for I am with you. Do not be dismayed, for I am your God. I will strengthen you. i will help you." Isaiah 41:10

amen.

<3 me

email to LauraB

everyday i try to send this daily message I get from www.joelosteen.com 's mailing list.
its so great i just couldn't keep it to myself...

I got two great responses today from the daily email...
:)

well today's was:

Be a Bounce-Back Person

Today's Scripture

"So be truly glad. There is wonderful joy ahead, even though you have to endure many trials for a little while. These trials will show that your faith is genuine. It is being tested as fire tests and purifies gold…" (I Peter 1:6-7, NLT).

Today's Word

We all face disappointments and setbacks. Life is full of things that try to push us down. Maybe you got bad news concerning your health. A relationship didn't work out. Maybe you lost your job. It was a setback. When we face setbacks, it's easy to get discouraged or lose our enthusiasm. Too often we are tempted to just settle where we are. But if we're going to see God's best, we have to have a bounce-back mentality. That means when you get knocked down, you don't stay down. You get back up again. It means when disappointments come, you shake them off knowing that what the enemy meant for your harm God is going to turn around and use for your good.

When you're a bounce-back person, you know that adversity is not permanent. Weeping may endure for a night, but you know joy is coming in the morning. There is wonderful joy ahead on the other side of this trial. Keep standing, keep believing, and choose to be a bounce-back person because you are coming out better off than you were before! You are rising higher, and you will fulfill the destiny God has in store for you!

A Prayer for Today

Father in heaven, I choose to set my focus on You. I know that You are turning things around in my favor. I choose to stand and believe Your promises. Thank You for Your faithfulness in my life. In Jesus' Name. Amen.

----------- so I got an email and it follows....

From: Laura
Sent: Tuesday, February 03, 2009 10:39 AM
To: 'Evie

I want you to see this…my friend (another suicide wife) texted me right before I got this and it said “I lied to you, I didn’t pick up Bill’s clothes or anything, I intended to but didn’t. Is this my 2^nd valentine’s? The 2^nd year has been so much harder since the shock wore off.” My email symbol then changed to show I had mail. It was this. I sent it to her with the message below.

Thanks for continuing to inspire me! WITH MUCH LOVE

~Laura

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From: Laura
Sent: Tuesday, February 03, 2009 10:34 AM
To: 'susan'

Susan,

I love you! I believe in you! I think there was a reason we met that day…and there continues to be. Why else would this message come today, at this time, while we are texting about how many years it’s been and Bill’s clothes? Perhaps Bill is up there trying to help you right now. Open to the signs, I think he’s okay with you picking up his clothes today.

BIG HUGS! I LOVE YOU! You always make me feel warm and cared for and remind me I’m not in this alone.

`Laura

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From: Evie
Sent: Tuesday, February 03, 2009 12:19 PM
To: 'Laura

Laura, you do know its not me... its the God in me that does what I do, say what i say,who allows me to be who i am; give what i do & love others.

and look at God working in you too!!!! :D

the biggest thing I'm learning is about realization... and what the bible teaches about life.

if the devil can take your faith... he can take you.

you have got to know that you are never alone.... God is always with you - hes inside. Or he'll give you people to be there for you.

yeah it seems hard @ night & when your emotions take you over... you have to control those emotions, not let them overtake you in depression, sadness, despair or greif. Dont believe the lies the devil tries to get you into thinking. thats all it is. he dont care about you just your faith... (the jesus inside of you)

you GOT TO hold on to your faith...

KNOW that its going to be ok, you'll always be better than before & theres purpose for things happening... even the bad- we dont understand them, but its not our job to figure out the whys, but to BELIEVE IN certain things; all these life lessons are building you up to something you dont even know what for, but it can be use to help others and that in turn and help others...

the bible says all you need is a musturd seed size of faith. just a TINY bit!

I truly know & believe God allows things in your life to happen to get you to the place you need to be. He gives us people we need to know, struggle with, love and learn from & go through things . God already knows what we need... its all His purpose.

Hes always there for us, we just have to let Him in to ourselves.

Our God is so much bigger than our problems & when you focus on what He can do for you & what he's done & pulled you out of; what you're greatful for (even if it is "being born" which you should be ) & get your head from focusing on all of the "PROBLEMS" - & stop making things all about "YOU, YOU, YOU" - then you realize whats important & the bigger picture. Your situation or problems aren't important. How you overcome them & your attitude towards them is the key...

Set yourself free from the problems, by getting the focus off them... & allow yourself to be happy.

Happiness is a choice.

You can choose to be happy or to remain in your dissapointments, sadness, depression. You do have strength. You can overcome.

SAY IT OUTLOUD EVEN~

Its a mind set... your attitude determines your altitude.

sometimes you have to just pick your own self up... but you're not alone in this life.

So try to realize what i just typed... once you do, get that mindset & make it work for you; it will help you get through those tough times

When i feel a little sadness or depression coming along... i just check myself & get my head back right.

Allmost everyday i say aloud, LORD HELP ME, LORD I KNOW YOU SEE THIS & YOU KNOW WHAT IM FEELING... I KNOW ITS LIES IM THINKING & YOUR WORD SAYS IF YOU ARE FOR ME WHO CAN BE AGAINST ME... almost everyday i say this...

It is honestly, a daily, almost hourly struggle to think right. But since I've started realizing things and learning about things- it gets easier... my recovery time(from ilfe's situations) is QUICKER...and i get my peace & happiness back much faster... i still get sad & upset but not for the amount of time like i use to.

For me, I've learned that if i speak the Word ( bible scriptures: " if God be for you who can be against you" ) things happen QUICK!

this email is just confirmation for me... its just a lil hug from God saying keep doing things that glorify Him... keep on keeping on.

Keep being obedient even though its hard as all get out... LOL But I know im doing whats right.

Things like this help me keep on keeping on too ;) and confirms i know God hears me and loves me & got things in control. It helps me see his purpose...but im always looking for His pupose.... not mine.

All this pain ya'll are going through is just tests... you've got to learn things from it... so you can move on.

Realize the things you are needing from these terribly unfair situations... get what you only need from them & then release the rest to God to handle.

and THANK HIM for it.. for molding you into what you need to be.

Letting go of things is one of the hardest lessons i've experienced...

i just stay in close relationship with God & I thank him all day... when i dont know what to say; i just say thank you.

I tell him to take all this pain and anger and frustrations, i tell him i'm expecting great things for my life & to use me to do His work... i try to make life not all about me. its a path full of struggles; but the benefits are so greater ( to me ).

What it boils down to is where you're @ and what you want in life yanno?

i love you laura - and you know where to go when you're in need. Sometimes we just have to have a lil nudge once in a while. ;)

-------------------- her response -----------

From: Laura
Sent: Tuesday, February 03, 2009 1:34 PM
To: 'Evie

You know, I’ve always thought that maybe God didn’t know the end of my life, but that he knew all the alternative versions. That life was a path with many forks and that choice and free will would decide which path I followed. Maybe I’m wrong. Maybe, life is predetermined by God. Like in the book, The Five People You Meet In Heaven. Life is a path with many choices, but maybe the choices I make are for predetermined purposes. If I hadn’t met Tony I wouldn’t have learned many things, or have many things in my life now. I don’t know. It’s all so very confusing.

THANK YOU EVIE! THIS IS SOMETHING I WILL READ AND READ AND READ!

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From: Evie
Sent: Tuesday, February 03, 2009 2:25 PM
To: 'Laura on

put it in your lil box i made ya ;)

i honestly dont know either. I try to just learn as i go, take what im suppose to, share with others & never stop growing.

and for now, this is what i believe.... it may change eventually and the more i learn, then that knowledge might change my thoughts too... but still.

I do know that i've learned SO much in my twenties- but its mainly through the hell & blessings I go through. people i meet, trials i face, drama i endure & mistakes or poor/good choices i make. ...aka life.

I do know life is about perspective... and that your attitude about it, determines how well or not so well you can get through it & how fast... but still I always know i can get through it. I belive. thats why.... kinda what i mean is like, when you're young... you have all these things you THINK you know and ....and as time goes by- those perceptions change... because you change. I use to think " i never wanna change"

But i know now that we weren't made to be the same. we were made to change too...

I live & know God allows things to happen for reasons to get us where he needs us to be & gets us to change into the things we need to be... not just for ourselves but for others.

i do feel life is about choices too... but still- those determine how well or not so well life goes for us.

but im starting to see how theres something more; and reasons for whys ( even though i dont get the answer til like WAY WAY LATER) but at least i get the answer(s) when its suppose to be revealed to me.

Life really is confusing, and a lot of the time we just dont know everything... and so we're wandering around trying to figure out and understand things... doing things, living life, etc...

i'm also starting to think, its already been laid out for us but its our choice on how we make the journey there.

The bible states that God knew us when we are in the womb... I'm kinda understanding that as i grow & learn more... and it just shows you how big God is.

When i dont understand a lot of things, i just say; I trust you God. and let it play out. thats really hard too, because i want to do things i want to do, when i want to do them & how i want it to be done. LOL

i havent read that book... yet

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and to top that off, Lisa & Ash went to the Christian book store tonight, bought some books... a cd that had a song we heard/sung when we went to the HPChurch's Women's Night!! My heart is bursting... I can't help but to cry tears of joy & thank God right now. :*D

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DAILY BREAD

" I will lie down in peace and sleep, for you alone, O Lord, will keep me safe." Pslam 4:8 NLT

I love it when God confirms things to me, shows me He's listening to my prayers & my heart... it blesses me when He uses me to do his work(s) ...

I love it when the holy ghost can put things in my heart & head to share with others & help them & just allow God to do His thing through me. It makes me feel like a deserving servant & makes me feel like im doing what im suppose to do.

i love seeing Him in daily life & people. ...it always touches me even more when i see Him and experience Him with my family. When my family & friends shows me Him.