February 3, 2009

email to LauraB

everyday i try to send this daily message I get from www.joelosteen.com 's mailing list.
its so great i just couldn't keep it to myself...

I got two great responses today from the daily email...
:)

well today's was:

Be a Bounce-Back Person

Today's Scripture

"So be truly glad. There is wonderful joy ahead, even though you have to endure many trials for a little while. These trials will show that your faith is genuine. It is being tested as fire tests and purifies gold…" (I Peter 1:6-7, NLT).

Today's Word

We all face disappointments and setbacks. Life is full of things that try to push us down. Maybe you got bad news concerning your health. A relationship didn't work out. Maybe you lost your job. It was a setback. When we face setbacks, it's easy to get discouraged or lose our enthusiasm. Too often we are tempted to just settle where we are. But if we're going to see God's best, we have to have a bounce-back mentality. That means when you get knocked down, you don't stay down. You get back up again. It means when disappointments come, you shake them off knowing that what the enemy meant for your harm God is going to turn around and use for your good.

When you're a bounce-back person, you know that adversity is not permanent. Weeping may endure for a night, but you know joy is coming in the morning. There is wonderful joy ahead on the other side of this trial. Keep standing, keep believing, and choose to be a bounce-back person because you are coming out better off than you were before! You are rising higher, and you will fulfill the destiny God has in store for you!

A Prayer for Today

Father in heaven, I choose to set my focus on You. I know that You are turning things around in my favor. I choose to stand and believe Your promises. Thank You for Your faithfulness in my life. In Jesus' Name. Amen.

----------- so I got an email and it follows....

From: Laura
Sent: Tuesday, February 03, 2009 10:39 AM
To: 'Evie

I want you to see this…my friend (another suicide wife) texted me right before I got this and it said “I lied to you, I didn’t pick up Bill’s clothes or anything, I intended to but didn’t. Is this my 2nd valentine’s? The 2nd year has been so much harder since the shock wore off.” My email symbol then changed to show I had mail. It was this. I sent it to her with the message below.

Thanks for continuing to inspire me! WITH MUCH LOVE

~Laura


From: Laura
Sent: Tuesday, February 03, 2009 10:34 AM
To: 'susan'

Susan,

I love you! I believe in you! I think there was a reason we met that day…and there continues to be. Why else would this message come today, at this time, while we are texting about how many years it’s been and Bill’s clothes? Perhaps Bill is up there trying to help you right now. Open to the signs, I think he’s okay with you picking up his clothes today.

BIG HUGS! I LOVE YOU! You always make me feel warm and cared for and remind me I’m not in this alone.

`Laura

--------------------my response-------------------

From: Evie
Sent: Tuesday, February 03, 2009 12:19 PM
To: 'Laura

Laura, you do know its not me... its the God in me that does what I do, say what i say,who allows me to be who i am; give what i do & love others.

and look at God working in you too!!!! :D

the biggest thing I'm learning is about realization... and what the bible teaches about life.

if the devil can take your faith... he can take you.

you have got to know that you are never alone.... God is always with you - hes inside. Or he'll give you people to be there for you.

yeah it seems hard @ night & when your emotions take you over... you have to control those emotions, not let them overtake you in depression, sadness, despair or greif. Dont believe the lies the devil tries to get you into thinking. thats all it is. he dont care about you just your faith... (the jesus inside of you)

you GOT TO hold on to your faith...

KNOW that its going to be ok, you'll always be better than before & theres purpose for things happening... even the bad- we dont understand them, but its not our job to figure out the whys, but to BELIEVE IN certain things; all these life lessons are building you up to something you dont even know what for, but it can be use to help others and that in turn and help others...

the bible says all you need is a musturd seed size of faith. just a TINY bit!

I truly know & believe God allows things in your life to happen to get you to the place you need to be. He gives us people we need to know, struggle with, love and learn from & go through things . God already knows what we need... its all His purpose.

Hes always there for us, we just have to let Him in to ourselves.

Our God is so much bigger than our problems & when you focus on what He can do for you & what he's done & pulled you out of; what you're greatful for (even if it is "being born" which you should be ) & get your head from focusing on all of the "PROBLEMS" - & stop making things all about "YOU, YOU, YOU" - then you realize whats important & the bigger picture. Your situation or problems aren't important. How you overcome them & your attitude towards them is the key...

Set yourself free from the problems, by getting the focus off them... & allow yourself to be happy.

Happiness is a choice.

You can choose to be happy or to remain in your dissapointments, sadness, depression. You do have strength. You can overcome.

SAY IT OUTLOUD EVEN~

Its a mind set... your attitude determines your altitude.

sometimes you have to just pick your own self up... but you're not alone in this life.

So try to realize what i just typed... once you do, get that mindset & make it work for you; it will help you get through those tough times

When i feel a little sadness or depression coming along... i just check myself & get my head back right.

Allmost everyday i say aloud, LORD HELP ME, LORD I KNOW YOU SEE THIS & YOU KNOW WHAT IM FEELING... I KNOW ITS LIES IM THINKING & YOUR WORD SAYS IF YOU ARE FOR ME WHO CAN BE AGAINST ME... almost everyday i say this...

It is honestly, a daily, almost hourly struggle to think right. But since I've started realizing things and learning about things- it gets easier... my recovery time(from ilfe's situations) is QUICKER...and i get my peace & happiness back much faster... i still get sad & upset but not for the amount of time like i use to.

For me, I've learned that if i speak the Word ( bible scriptures: " if God be for you who can be against you" ) things happen QUICK!

this email is just confirmation for me... its just a lil hug from God saying keep doing things that glorify Him... keep on keeping on.

Keep being obedient even though its hard as all get out... LOL But I know im doing whats right.

Things like this help me keep on keeping on too ;) and confirms i know God hears me and loves me & got things in control. It helps me see his purpose...but im always looking for His pupose.... not mine.

All this pain ya'll are going through is just tests... you've got to learn things from it... so you can move on.

Realize the things you are needing from these terribly unfair situations... get what you only need from them & then release the rest to God to handle.

and THANK HIM for it.. for molding you into what you need to be.

Letting go of things is one of the hardest lessons i've experienced...

i just stay in close relationship with God & I thank him all day... when i dont know what to say; i just say thank you.

I tell him to take all this pain and anger and frustrations, i tell him i'm expecting great things for my life & to use me to do His work... i try to make life not all about me. its a path full of struggles; but the benefits are so greater ( to me ).

What it boils down to is where you're @ and what you want in life yanno?

i love you laura - and you know where to go when you're in need. Sometimes we just have to have a lil nudge once in a while. ;)

-------------------- her response -----------

From: Laura
Sent: Tuesday, February 03, 2009 1:34 PM
To: 'Evie

You know, I’ve always thought that maybe God didn’t know the end of my life, but that he knew all the alternative versions. That life was a path with many forks and that choice and free will would decide which path I followed. Maybe I’m wrong. Maybe, life is predetermined by God. Like in the book, The Five People You Meet In Heaven. Life is a path with many choices, but maybe the choices I make are for predetermined purposes. If I hadn’t met Tony I wouldn’t have learned many things, or have many things in my life now. I don’t know. It’s all so very confusing.

THANK YOU EVIE! THIS IS SOMETHING I WILL READ AND READ AND READ!

---------------- my last response ------------

From: Evie
Sent: Tuesday, February 03, 2009 2:25 PM
To: 'Laura on

put it in your lil box i made ya ;)
i honestly dont know either. I try to just learn as i go, take what im suppose to, share with others & never stop growing.
and for now, this is what i believe.... it may change eventually and the more i learn, then that knowledge might change my thoughts too... but still.
I do know that i've learned SO much in my twenties- but its mainly through the hell & blessings I go through. people i meet, trials i face, drama i endure & mistakes or poor/good choices i make. ...aka life.
I do know life is about perspective... and that your attitude about it, determines how well or not so well you can get through it & how fast... but still I always know i can get through it. I belive. thats why.... kinda what i mean is like, when you're young... you have all these things you THINK you know and ....and as time goes by- those perceptions change... because you change. I use to think " i never wanna change"
But i know now that we weren't made to be the same. we were made to change too...
I live & know God allows things to happen for reasons to get us where he needs us to be & gets us to change into the things we need to be... not just for ourselves but for others.
i do feel life is about choices too... but still- those determine how well or not so well life goes for us.
but im starting to see how theres something more; and reasons for whys ( even though i dont get the answer til like WAY WAY LATER) but at least i get the answer(s) when its suppose to be revealed to me.
Life really is confusing, and a lot of the time we just dont know everything... and so we're wandering around trying to figure out and understand things... doing things, living life, etc...
i'm also starting to think, its already been laid out for us but its our choice on how we make the journey there.
The bible states that God knew us when we are in the womb... I'm kinda understanding that as i grow & learn more... and it just shows you how big God is.
When i dont understand a lot of things, i just say; I trust you God. and let it play out. thats really hard too, because i want to do things i want to do, when i want to do them & how i want it to be done. LOL
i havent read that book... yet

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and to top that off, Lisa & Ash went to the Christian book store tonight, bought some books... a cd that had a song we heard/sung when we went to the HPChurch's Women's Night!! My heart is bursting... I can't help but to cry tears of joy & thank God right now. :*D

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DAILY BREAD

" I will lie down in peace and sleep, for you alone, O Lord, will keep me safe." Pslam 4:8 NLT

I love it when God confirms things to me, shows me He's listening to my prayers & my heart... it blesses me when He uses me to do his work(s) ...

I love it when the holy ghost can put things in my heart & head to share with others & help them & just allow God to do His thing through me. It makes me feel like a deserving servant & makes me feel like im doing what im suppose to do.

i love seeing Him in daily life & people. ...it always touches me even more when i see Him and experience Him with my family. When my family & friends shows me Him.

February 2, 2009

January wrap up

So its been WOOO these last few weeks.
**Jan 17-19 was my BFFs bachelorette party in Biloxi.
It was fun to get together... :) I wasn't in the mood to party too much; but nonetheless we had a great time. I won the lil game "who knows the bachelorette the most" type game. :D go me...

**January 19- WOW what a great roller coaster day... extreme lows to extreme highs
It started out not so good, coming back from biloxi, i had just random stupid thoughts allowing myself to get all frustrated with persons, running my life accourances and conversations in my mind letting it get to me... so i tried to stop it. Let it go... and i eventually did, but i was still bothered by it.
Yanno how you just let yourself be sucked in to the lies the devil always tries to get at you with... but i had to stay shoving it off. Even though it brought me down some, once i got back and unpacked and all i got alil better.. then MY PHONE RINGS!
Its my sister asking about the HPWomen's that was that evening @ church. Even better... SHE WAS COMING & ASH! :D
That made me feel so great knowing that!
Completely turned my day around... Its amazing how people who "REALLY LOVE" you can make almost anything go away. :) good always triumphs over evil. memba dat!
So we went to the church & since it was our first time, just kinda observed a little bit.
Then it started with worship songs & of course me & my easy crying self got at it! ;*) it was good songs... lots of praise & my family was there being able to experience some of Jesus & hopefully took something back home.
the pastor's wife talked about 5 ways to live less stressed & related it to scriptures. :)
(my lil notepad is in my car otherwise i'd jot it down here) it was good, practical & God's truth, what a perfect combo!
we prayed for each other & left! it was really awesome... funny how God answered three prayers in one... and i didnt even know/expect/forced any of them... i just gave it to Him to do.
The rest of the days until Jan 31 were spent not sleeping enough trying to get the right photography gear & read up on things and flash lighting... so I was watching tutorials & reading & online shopping for the last few days. Oh and getting things prepared/ready for the bridal shower games for Jamie. busy busy UGH! :/


**January 31 I went back home for my bff's bridal shower. Helped decorate & set up things, passed out things for the guests & helped with the present passing/opening thing you do @ showers LOL She had a good turn out... and it was really nice! :)

** Feb 1, Sunday
I finished up pics for my senior & her brag book... paid bills & cleaned.

I love how my family sees a little change in me. Like instead of talking about certain things... we tend to talk more & more about God things... :) which is awesome... im so proud of us. But i love it when they tell me how my godson is & his lil episodes with "God stuff talk". HAHA I can see how God planned it all out.
So he loses the key to the house... and hes punished & frustrated. Days go by with everyone looking for the key. He didnt want to take a ride to town for icecream... then less than 5 minutes later he changes his mind & goes with Ash. While waiting for the icecream, Matt ends up playing around in his dashboard... FINDING THE KEY! Ash tells him he better thank God! LOL He smirks and Ash asks him what... he says Lisa just texted him telling him it was God & to thank him... he sighs, & said, " And I was just cussin Him in my head... " - OH LAWD HOW GOOD IS GOD!
Hes struggling with his beliefs. And I've prayed for God todo works in my family & in his life & to change his heart & let God show himself real to Ren. oh what a great lesson... whos the boss now Ren? God- 1 Ren- 0 HAHAHA what a sense of humor the almighty got. i love it! When i was hearing the story told to me; i just was like... thank you Jesus! ...see even in the mist of all hopelessness (they searched for so long & everywhere- even theat vehicle TWICE)... God shows up how he wants and proves himself great YET AGAIN!
And in my life.. its God- 5,645,684,875 Evie- 0
i love me some God.

Bread of Life Today ( honestly, random picked but always so sutiable )
"Ask anything in my name, and I will do it! " John 14:14 NLT